It has been (and continues to be) an excruciating journey in many ways – but this is the path to understanding. Most recent events where Satan has been involved seem to have absolutely obliterated “the shell that enclosed my understanding” and I see who he truly is. I see that what he did can never be “made right” and I seem to have been expecting that. I see that all the money in the world won’t change the situation and that expecting anything different would just be a waste of more time. The legal process is well underway. Things like support, time with his children and what he owes me personally in terms of money will be sorted by the courts. I know my true worth and realize that I will never be reimbursed for the total giving (up) of myself that occurred over the past 30 years. But I know inside what is right. Something interesting(?) happened on the weekend. Something was said (and assumed) about me to my children by Satan and the skunt. I ached for the horrid position that placed the children in but was proud of their ability to manage it. What struck me and what I almost felt guilty about recognizing until my best friend stated it was that it was something that only a person who is jealous or threatened would say. I laughed a little about that.
Satan and the skunt are jealous and threatened and have huge fucking egos. Their “relationship” requires the drama of infidelity to keep it alive and without me acting crazily there ain’t much to sustain it. The sparkles are falling off at a rapid pace and my children are way too smart to be sucked in by trinkets and extravagance. How sad for my children….
Yet, how great for me: for I understand now and I will be truly FREE!